Now Watching

I recently finished watching "Taking the Stage" form MTV, it is a great reality show, not like the hill or real life, something in the middle but with loads of talent. I have become a fan of one of the people in the show, Mia, she's awesome. she a singer-song writer, and from what i saw, she can play the piano, the guitar, the bass and something like the saxophone. So very talented and she sing really well. one of the songs she sang in the series was Winter Song from Sara Barreilles, and an orginal song from her is Breathe You In. they are both my fav songs are the mo. She plays with the band The Retros and Aaron at the drums is her best friend.
Also u get to hear awesome music and see great performance with dancers, there is hip hop, ballet... many styles of dance and music. even on the actual show u can hear really good music in the background. Check out the 1st episode in MTV.com or in youtube.

2 years already.

It's been more than a month... and loads has happen, i've finally have holidays, exmams are over, and i've got 2 months ahead for fun, sun and maybe love :$ ..... i turned 17! Gosh! How old... eww i actually celebrated it a week ago, we had loads of fun, just a swimming pool kinda party, we also gave each other our secret santa presents, it was very nice get together before everyone went away for the hols.

My bday is aways for me like an alarm that tells me holidays are up, Christmas is soon, a knew year is approaching, stress is gonna be over! and that i'm a bit older! So..this week was xmas and i had a verry familiar time which was great, and the next day we visted some other family and tomorrow we will have some other familly over, and hopefuelly next week i'll go to La Serena with my daddy to spend New year there.

I got a letter form my bff Melanie for my bdya and it was the best surprise i clould've had. it was full of lil presents that i loved and long letter to read. I still have to answer her! :S i got loads of cards for my bday, which i think count the most... i mean, i got so many post in my facebook wall.. but these card actually lightened up my day. I can't believe it's been 2 years since i came back and i still have the amazing ppl that i meet in munich and all the things that have change in these 2 years. last summer hols seem like they were yesterday. 6th year (junior year) has gone by so fast, too fast may be, but i just gotta be prepared for what is next and have in mind the past and the greatest moments.

Disorientated with a pinch of tiredness

Yesterday I found out that pain can be released in so many different ways, like focusing in the good things u have, doing something you most like, writing it all down or like some I've known; cutting yourself. Of course you can just let it go but I now know that it hurts you even more if you can't take control of it, and it can also hurt others you love.

-This is it, let go, breathe- It's what I'm trying to do now, but I guess it happens to me every year when it's coming to an end. I've been bearing stress all year and it does affect me from the inside. should I give up? or make the last effort for 15 more unbearable days? Yes! 15 more day till break, then exams but I don't mind having those. The good thing is that I have my friends, and we have a wonderful time in any kind of situation. Today, even though we have tones of homework, we made ourselves a bit if time, we sat down on the grass and a few just smoked to relax, not me though i don't smoke. Life is bitter sweet but those the rules of the game, we have to live with that. Find who you are and who you love and everything it gonna be fine. Now I just gotta believe that, because I'm very good at giving advise to others but I never know what to do with my-own-self. I never forget all the people that I have, in Germany, here and at home. But stupidly I sometimes doubt if it's real, of if it's really that good and it makes me think of the bad things when I'm actually surrounded by the best I've ever had. So I hope to get over all this soon, and concentrate in the things i love, like this blog :D, my friends, family, music, photography, etc.

Munich

Munich, a small city with amazing things to see, and full of memories that feed my life today. It made me the person I am now, but what's best are the people that I met. Walking through the Odeonsplatz made me feel free, but at the same time it overpowered me completely with it's wonders, and the anguished I felt knowing I might once leave the place. And so it came the day that I jumped on a plane, to get a totally different life, and leave that one behind. What a fool! you make think, how could someone loose a place like this, but sometimes you don't have a choice, but letting the life you have flow. In the ancient but modern streets running 'round with my friends, that's what I most miss. Feeling the wind through my hair in a lovely day, in the heart of town where we used to sit by the windows of the designer shops, stupefied by the cloths we couldn't afford. I can still smell the sent of the gluwine, at Christmas time, going by the many markets in a snowy night, illuminated by the tree lights of the Marienplatz. Many times I took for granted, the beauty of the buildings covered with flowers, hanging from the balconies and the sweet extravagant sensation of the perfumes on display. Looking at the faces with the red noses from the cold, you could see that fashion in this city wasn't just a delight but a must like in nature there is air. So close so far where the minds of these people passing by, locked up in their busy lives. Sometimes I would think what the tourists came to see. Now it's me with the answer straight away, as now I'm the one gasping to visit this town agian, and reliving the memories i kept, of this wonderful place. Now the only thing left, is for me to be happy where I'm now, to appreciate what i now have, to notice the pretty things in life and look at the things in the best way i can.-